Happy Holidays My A**

I don't really want to go home for the holidays. It's 10 minutes away but it seems kind of like a whole different world. I just don't want to go home because I lose the fast internet, standard cable and my overall sense of freedom. I don't see anything special happening in the next week (not that it would have been any different here on campus), but anything can happen. For the first time I actually feel guilty for not wanting to be around my family. Family should be enough right? Well, obviously not when you lose the things that kind of helped you keep your sanity. either way, don't go telling the family this, they're really good people and it would be nice if they could have their holiday without this over their head..............

.....Default Character

You know what I mean. That blindingly obvious one dimensional character. You see them everywhere. And you've been looking at one for a few years now. That character is me. If this was Phantasy Star Online, I'd be a human. Nothing really bad, but Nothing special about them either. I have a guitar, but I can hardly play it. I can conjure a picture (or what I like to think passes for one) but I can't make anything even close to the worst on Deviantart (on second thought, maybe I can....) I have a few computer skills but I am by no means a 1337 haxor. I'm not a extraordinary student, but I'm not apathetic failure either. And yet everyone seems to see something in me and I have to wonder why. Am I selling myself short? I mean after all, you notice what you are, but never what you AREN'T until that becomes what you want to be...................*sigh*